There was a young woman by the name of Emily Isbell who was a longtime follower of my blog. She would always send Olivia cards and gifts in the mail. She was only in her 20s, but she was very ill. Tonight I was going through my address book and I came across her address. I felt an overwhelming sense of guilt. I would send her thank you cards, but never once did I send something special to her. She had lost both of her parents this past year. I'd send an email, but never did I send her something in the mail. That got me thinking. . .I had not heard from her in a long time. Things have been so crazy, I hadn't noticed. Knowing Emily, she would have a small gift for baby Abigail as she was so excited for her arrival. I looked her up on Facebook and found out she had passed away around the first of November. She never got to even "meet" my sweet Abigail. My heart is broken. For one, the world lost a very thoughtful, caring soul. And I'm so ashamed that I didn't even find out until 3 months later! It gives me peace that she is with her parents and I'm sure she has met my sweet Logan who she cared a lot about. But it still breaks my heart in two.
I unexpectedly gave birth at 23 weeks to micro-preemie twins on August 27, 2007. Olivia Paige weighed just 1 lb 1.5 oz and was 11.5 inches long. Logan William weighed just 1 lb 1.75 oz and was 11.5 inches long. Our sweet Logan passed away after 1 month and 1 day. After 105 days, we were able to bring Olivia home. She is our miracle, our survivor, our joy. . .
On November 20, 2012 we welcomed little sister, Abigail, into our lives. She was born at 35 weeks, but only spent 8 days in the hospital before coming home. We feel very blessed. To contact Ryan and Jodi you may email them at: firstname.lastname@example.org or email@example.com
You were the perfect little boy Of whom we always dreamed. Did you know we had your name picked out? All along or so it seemed.
You even had your daddy’s hands So miniature in size. In life we never got to hold you Or even see your opened eyes.
We had so many plans for you. Did you know you are a twin? I wanted you to grow up together. What a pair you would have been!
I wanted to take you to the park And push you on the swing. I wanted to teach you how to walk, And read and write and sing.
I wanted to show you a fire truck And let you ride upon a horse. I wanted to take you to the zoo To see the giraffes, of course.
I wanted you to watch cartoons And play video games with dad. And you and I would take a nap Oh, the times we would have had.
But, your mommy’s plans were not to be. “I have other plans,” God said. “You won't be playing in life’s playground You’ll be playing in heaven instead.”
And although I ache with sadness And in my arms I long to hold. I’ll see you again in heaven When my story on earth’s been told.
A thousand tiny fireflies Parading through the night Illuminate the starless skies With incandescent light They are miracles, here on earth So bold, so strong, so wise And bring to life a sense of worth For those who lack great size.
Some of this life’s smaller treasures Are the ones which matter more Than the larger joys and pleasures That we have grown to adore Volume is not as essential As the gift that lies inside Smaller souls with much potential Who shall never be denied.
A thousand tiny fireflies Parading through the night Illuminate the starless skies With incandescent light These children, while born premature Are testaments of worth Their spirits bold, their futures sure To ever bless the earth.